Candid

I am tired. I am tired of trying to figure out my life. I never have confidence in myself. I emotionally beat myself down into the dirt and can't seem to pick myself up. I should mention I am a weak person, very weak. I doubt myself. I am my worst enemy. I let people run over me. In fact I would probably let someone use my car run over me and then say I am sorry it is my fault because I was in the way. That is how much of a push over I am. I am learning to deal with this better.

I am glad I have this blog to let my feelings out. I just get down sometimes like we all do. I should mention I do have good days and for the most part I am a happy person.Life is just so much harder then I thought it would be. I struggle with it everyday. I am sure many people do. Some days I just feel like I can't handle it well.

I should focus on more happy things instead of focusing on the bad things. I have a lot to be thankful for.

Though, I wish my life would magically change. I know that is not going to happen. I am learning more and growing. I just really hope I figure something out very very soon. I can't keep doing this constantly changing my mind.