30 day Picture Challenge. Day 30

A picture of someone you miss, my cousin Benjamin. He died 5 years ago. He was the humor of our family. I miss him most during the holidays and his birthday. It is strange to write a Christmas list and not include him or sit in the Christmas circle and not see his face. You don't really think about all the ways a person has shaped your life until they are gone. I don't like to talk about him too much because it makes me sad. I usually just bottle it up. I haven't come to terms with him being gone completely. In my head he is still away at college, even though I know he isn't. I didn't see him that much since I lived in Maryland then so he was usually at college.I miss his humor the most though. He was a creative and funny individual who brighten our family and would have continued to be.