Chance

I have a chance to move in a new direction and to go somewhere else. I am a cautious person. So naturally I am taking time to think about it. I will hopefully have a set decision in a couple weeks. I want to make sure I have thought it through, I have thought about it before,but I was to cowardly to do it and it wasn't the right time.I have to be rational about it. I just hope that everyone understands or at least doesn't get mad at me. Everyone is busy and has their own life and I have to find something for myself. At least I will grow and have a new experience if I do.

Hmm...

I may move out sooner then I thought or at least get a break from it all.

Not Again... I mean COME ON!

So I was planning on majoring in Human Services. Planning is the important word here. Well I was going to have to take out student loans to do this. I knew that, but after I started reading about loans. I was researching students loans and saw some things I didn't like. Not being in control of how much I will have to pay back scares me. I don't think I will make too much money with an associate in Human Services and since my past blog posts have talked about how a 4 year school is not really an option for me and you could benefit greatly from a 4 year degree.I am stuck....once again. I have chronic change my mind in college disease. I don't know how many times it has happened and will continue to happen. Maybe I will change my mind back. I just have to think about it. I could finally see the light, not anymore.

I will be 23 this year.I have 6 months.I really don't know how much more I can take. I just don't know where I fit in in this world. I have tried to figure it out so many times. Many things just don't seem to work out. Sometimes I think there is something wrong with me like I am broken or something. I can't keep going on like this. Things just haven't been working out.Thankful I have my friends and family, but they can't make up my mind for me. It is something I have to work out. I just want to get away and move on with my life.