Saturday, February 20, 2010

A Realization


So I am 21 as a lot of you already know. I also am in college, but I am not as far along in college as I thought or hoped for in my life. I thought I was going to be like other people. Go to college, have a part time job, a boyfriend and friends maybe be in some clubs and be able to juggle all that. Well I don't have a boyfriend or a job. I am also not in any clubs. I do have awesome amazing friends. I wanted to get married in like 4-6 years. That doesn't look like it is going to happen and part of me doesn't want it to. I have been living my life as if I was already attached to someone. I am single and free and if I want to go out, I pretty much can. I realize now that I wouldn't mind not getting married till I was 28-31. Maybe it isn't that much of big deal the age difference I mean.Marriage would probably be better when I am more older and more mature. Pretty much the only thing I wanted out of life was to be married and have children. What seemed "normal" to me. I have just wanted to be normal not something above normal. What is normal anyway? There isn't a real clear way to define it, it is just your own interpretation. I discovered that I should live my life and be selfish for the time being so to say before I end up settling down and not doing the little things I want to do. There are alot of things I want to do and enjoy before I settle down and move on into the next phase of my life.

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