Life...

I think my life would be a lot better if I was more positive about myself the way others are about me. I need to realize that sometimes I will fail and to not let that get me down so much. I spend too much time thinking about my past failures. My life isn't going to be perfect and how I expected it to be. I need to accept and get over the things I can't change or stuff I am weaker at then other people. I compare myself with other people too much, and I fall short of what other people achieve. I am my own person and I am going to be different then other people and not as good at certain things other people are good at. I need to just move on!

A Realization

So I am 21 as a lot of you already know. I also am in college, but I am not as far along in college as I thought or hoped for in my life. I thought I was going to be like other people. Go to college, have a part time job, a boyfriend and friends maybe be in some clubs and be able to juggle all that. Well I don't have a boyfriend or a job. I am also not in any clubs. I do have awesome amazing friends. I wanted to get married in like 4-6 years. That doesn't look like it is going to happen and part of me doesn't want it to. I have been living my life as if I was already attached to someone. I am single and free and if I want to go out, I pretty much can. I realize now that I wouldn't mind not getting married till I was 28-31. Maybe it isn't that much of big deal the age difference I mean.Marriage would probably be better when I am more older and more mature. Pretty much the only thing I wanted out of life was to be married and have children. What seemed "normal" to me. I have just wanted to be normal not something above normal. What is normal anyway? There isn't a real clear way to define it, it is just your own interpretation. I discovered that I should live my life and be selfish for the time being so to say before I end up settling down and not doing the little things I want to do. There are alot of things I want to do and enjoy before I settle down and move on into the next phase of my life.

Looking Back...

So tonight I was looking back at my old childhood photos. I was looking for my ice skating pictures specfically. I found them and looked through alot of other pictures like past christmases and birthday parties. I used to be so happy and carefree. I really did have a great childhood filled with different experiences like ice skating,girl scouts, and handbells. I don't know why I stopped doing extra things like that. When I was in high school I just went to school came home and went online and my life has been like that for a while now. I need to get more involved in stuff. It is like I live my life through other peoples happiness and dreams. I don't even really know what I want. If only I still had the spirit and care freeness I had when I was younger. I could do even greater things. I am trying to think outside of the box about what I may like to try or do in the future. I know I would like to try a sport of some sort. Maybe start skating alittle bit though I was never good I just skated around the ice for fun. The problem is I need to find something close to home. Something I can get excited about and enjoy. Maybe become an instructor if I become good. Hopefully, I will stubble opon something soon. I also want to start volunteering somewhere as well.

Winter Olympics 2010

I am excited for the Olympics to start tonight. I enjoy figure skating the most. I liked it a lot when I was younger, but during the 2006 Olympic games I discovered Men's Figure Skating. There I saw Stephane Lambiel of Switzerland. He won the Silver Medal in 2006. I am pulling for him or Evan Lysacek ( Team USA!) to win Gold. It also snowed in Alabama today way to get me more into the spirit.This picture was taken at The Olympic Park in Atlanta.

Where do I go from here...

I am not really sure, once again. Either way I hope I have an adventure!