I want a change

Well I am trying to come to the conclusion that I need a change in my life.

I feel stuck. I am tried of trying to save money for school and not having enough making minimum wage. It just keeps delaying my graduation which really annoys me. I have other things to pay for as well, I don't want to pay all my tuition and have an emergency and no money left. I am 23 live at home and want to take the burden off my parents. I don't make enough money to take care of myself and I DON'T LIKE IT! Every year I grow older and it stays the same, live at home go to Community College. Well not next year I am taking a break possibly. It is going to take me forever to graduate and at this point I am just angry. I know my parents could help, but I wanted to do it myself. My classes are going to be mostly internet which is not good for me. I did well last semester and this semester I am slacking off, because I don't like reading and not being in class learning with my classmates. I do well in a classroom setting. I am a visual learner.

I tried to not let it bother me, but I knew this semester would get to me. I am tried of trying and failing all the time. Whether it is money or grades. Maybe it isn't working out because it isn't where I am supposed to be. I just picked it so I could get a diploma. ALL I WANT IS A DIPLOMA!!! I am burned out I think with college. I took two semesters off before and I think I miss not dealing with school. I usually go back more driven. I know I can be a driven person and stubbon at times, like I am right now. I think I KNOW what is best for me, but obliviously I don't since I change my mind all the time. I really just need to trust Jesus and stop trying to be practical and rationalize every thing I do. I am a unhappy person and if I don't stop and change it I may grow into a bitter old lady.

Ugh

Sometimes it feels like I can't do much right.

November already.

I feel blah emotionally and physically. I am ready to be done with college and start my career. This is taking too long.