Overwhelmed

I am soo Overwhelmed today. I have 5 essays due in 2 days. Last week was bad now this one is too. Will I ever get a break? God I am soo tired of all of this. Please help me to get through it all. I am scared I am going to fail. I am a mess. All I do is cry when I am worried or scared. Why can't I be strong? I hate myself for crying over stuff all the time. I feel so weak when I do. I just panic and can't go on anymore or so it feels that way.I wish I could handle situautions in my life better. I just fear so many things. I don't even know what to do with my life....

Dramatic...

I realize my last post was a little dramatic... I can't help if that is how I felt at the time. I got my test grade back and got a 58%, well it was better than last time. I am going to do some bonus so that will help my grade.Will spring break come sooner? Please...

Math stinks...

I am having a lot problems in math. My first test I got a zero (How can you not feel dumb after that), but my teacher was nice enough to give us all 10 pionts so I ended up with a 10/100 Anyway, I have a test tomorrow in math and I have been working on my homework and it is really hard for me. I freeze up and get scared that I will get the answer wrong..which usually happens( it is a fact sorry guys, 9:1 ratio that I will get the answer wrong) see I know math. Anyway, I have a feeling I will have to drop this class. I am beginning to give up the"dream"of going to a University which I really wanted to badly in the past to go to. I am just not smart enough to pass my math classes. So naturally I have been a little feeling down this semester. Last semester was good I had a 3.69 gpa. So not happening this semester. I don't know what to do now. I am going to be 21 this year and I am lost in my life. I have some hope left,but it is really hard not to get discouraged and all. I really want to be smart, but I am afraid my brain will not allow me too....