As this year comes to a close..

Another year is about to end and it is also going to be a new decade. This year has been a pretty good one. I gained a new group of awesome friends. I also started driving again which was a goal that seemed almost impossible. I got my own car. I became more comfortable with who I am and more social. Hopefully, next year will be filled with even more accomplishments. Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year!

Classic Movies, Cooking, and Coloring

Those are the three things I want to do during my winter break. I also will be looking for a job, which isn't new. I love watching classic movies and don't really get to watch that many during the school year. I have a list that includes Red Dust, West Side Story, Alice Adams, and Breakfast at Tiffany's. I hope to at least watch 8 movies on my list. I am cooking dinner tonight. I want to learn how to cook. I love soup, so I thought I would try a new recipe.As for coloring, I haven't done that in a while and it would just be fun to go back to the old days and color some.

Changing my Path

I start my Thanksgiving break today. I have somethings I need to work on during this break and think about. I am planning on starting a career after this semester. I am ready for a change and to take a risk. I guess my vision for myself changed and I am moving on. Like any decision I make; I hope it is the right one. I am still scared though. I hope I am on the right path.

Fall

I am 21

I recently just turned 21. I had mixed feelings about it. I was getting older and still not that sure about my path in life. I had a great 21st birthday though. I got to spend it with my family and friends. I am really an adult now and ready to move onto the next stage of my life.Cheers!

My Car.

I know this is a little late. I couldn't figute out how to put pictures on my laptop. I figured out how to do it a couple of days ago. I have had my car for over a month now :)

Driven?

I need to be more driven and disciplined about what I want. I am just down right lazy sometimes. I just want to do what I want to do and not study nearly as much as I should. It will come back to bite me and it already has before. I need to put my foot down and do what I need to do!

Thinking...

I have been thinking about what my dream career is. I am not very confident with my new major. My heart isn't really that into it. I loved doing General Studies and working toward a BS or BA degree. The only problem I had is math. I am taking an easier math class this semester it is the only math I have to have for my new major.I don't know what to do. I have been thinking lately about Teaching that is what I wanted to do a couple years ago. I was an intern for a Kindergarden class my last year of High School and loved it.I am just not that good with discipline.I just don't really know what to do. I just don't know if I can get over my fears of failure.

More new things.

I got a CAR! I have never had a car of my own so it is quite exciting. It is a red Sebring 1998 with a rag top. I will have to post a picture later.

I am moving on..

I drove to school today. It sounds stupid, but that is one thing I have never done.I had a accident almost 2 years ago and I was too scared to drive and I never thought I would. I am glad that God gave me the courage too!

College here I come... (again)

I started my new semester. I changed my major and it is different from what I pictured myself doing. I have alot of classes infront of a computer which I am not used to. It sounds silly, but I miss being able to eat and drink in my classes. I can't since I am near a computer I suppose. Another thing is I have classes at 8am Monday-Thursday. That will take some getting used to. Many days I will not want to get up and sleep in. It will all be ok though.

The Season of School

Well school starts back in a week. I am excited and a little scared. I hope I made the right decision about college. I am changing my major to Office Admin because of some conflicts with classes. It is about the same thing and I plan on taking the Medical track. The Medical field is hiring and the Lord knows I need a job.

My Life.

I offically changed my major to Medical Transcription. I hope it will be a great career for me. I also started back driving. I am so glad that my life is turning around.Praise God!

Wondering...

I wonder what God's will is for my life. What my job/career will be? What my life will be like 5 years from now? Who I will I be close friends with? Will I recieve a degree? When will I move out? I just wonder. It is exciting how my life can turn into anything I want it to be. I will just have to see what is next. Patience is what I need more of. I am thankful that I am still alive and that I can hopefully learn the answers to my questions.

The Future.

I have to figure out what is most important to me. I know education is very important and I am not going to quit school. I want to be independent. People my age are already out of the house and in Universities. I feel behind. My life has been stuck for a year and a half ever since my accident. Why can't I let it go and finally forgive myself? Driving to me is beyond scary it is crippling and has made me very dependent on others.I don't want to be like that. I am very thankful to everyone who has drove me anywhere because I never would have left my house otherwise which is sad. I take things way to harsh. Everyone else can just move on and drive that very same day they got into an accident. I take things hard and am losing faith in myself sometimes. Well this is my reality....

Confused...

Well here I am 20 years old and I am unsure of what career path to take.I am looking through my college catalog trying to figure it all out. I want to have a career that is practial. I want to be able to work any where not be limited to a certain area of the country. I know what I like, but I really want to have a stable career and what I was thinking about doing may not have that option. It is scary how are you supposed to plan your future when you are still so young. It is one of the biggest decisions of my life and I keep trying to delay it. What I really want is to be independent and happy with myself. I need to chose a major before school starts back. I am thinking about switching my dream and going for a health related field. I do enjoy learning about health. We will just have to see where my future leads me. I thought this picture was fitting. I took this photo about a month ago.

Summer Break!

It is already my summer vacation. I went to Mobile and Gulf Shores a little while ago. That was fun. I got to spend time with my close friends. I am bored though staying home since I am not taking any summer classes. I am looking for a job and that will be part of how I spend my summer. We are filling up my pool as we speak and I can't wait to have family and friends over to swim.

It is almost Over.

Well I have today and tomorrow left of my spring break. It has been a fun one. I am still in Tampa with my best friend. I got to go to the beach. I really like Tampa. It is pretty. I have enjoyed the Palm Trees as well. I have got to hang out like it was the good old days in Maryland though we are both in a different states now.The break went by fast which makes me sad, but it is almost summer. I wish I knew what I wanted to be it would make all this alot easier on me...

Spring Break!

I am happy that after tomorrow my spring break starts. I can sleep all I want. I get to see my best friend a week from today. I can go to the beach and just sit there. It is so peaceful. My thoughts are all over the place in this post I am just so thankful I get a break. Of course I still have homework to do. So it goes...

The storm has pasted

Well my teacher gave us more time for those Essays. THANK GOD. I realize that I write and talk about school way too much. Ok people have told me that I talk about school too much. Anyway, What should I talk about now....Hopefully I can hangout with my friends and have a spend the night party tonight. Hope everyone has a great weekend :)

Overwhelmed

I am soo Overwhelmed today. I have 5 essays due in 2 days. Last week was bad now this one is too. Will I ever get a break? God I am soo tired of all of this. Please help me to get through it all. I am scared I am going to fail. I am a mess. All I do is cry when I am worried or scared. Why can't I be strong? I hate myself for crying over stuff all the time. I feel so weak when I do. I just panic and can't go on anymore or so it feels that way.I wish I could handle situautions in my life better. I just fear so many things. I don't even know what to do with my life....

Dramatic...

I realize my last post was a little dramatic... I can't help if that is how I felt at the time. I got my test grade back and got a 58%, well it was better than last time. I am going to do some bonus so that will help my grade.Will spring break come sooner? Please...

Math stinks...

I am having a lot problems in math. My first test I got a zero (How can you not feel dumb after that), but my teacher was nice enough to give us all 10 pionts so I ended up with a 10/100 Anyway, I have a test tomorrow in math and I have been working on my homework and it is really hard for me. I freeze up and get scared that I will get the answer wrong..which usually happens( it is a fact sorry guys, 9:1 ratio that I will get the answer wrong) see I know math. Anyway, I have a feeling I will have to drop this class. I am beginning to give up the"dream"of going to a University which I really wanted to badly in the past to go to. I am just not smart enough to pass my math classes. So naturally I have been a little feeling down this semester. Last semester was good I had a 3.69 gpa. So not happening this semester. I don't know what to do now. I am going to be 21 this year and I am lost in my life. I have some hope left,but it is really hard not to get discouraged and all. I really want to be smart, but I am afraid my brain will not allow me too....

2 months..

It is two more months till I go to Tampa and see my best friend. I can't wait till spring break.I want to go to the beach so bad. I can't wait till it starts getting warmer and we open our pool as well. I hope that I swim in it more than I did last year.

Facebook Freak...

I have recently started using my facebook. My Aunt Brenda requested me as a friend and the rest is history. It is my new favorite thing to do. If anyone doesn't have facebook you should get one, it is great fun.

From Loser to Loser...

I was tagged by my cousin Mary Anne.Here are the rules:

1. Choose the 4th folder where I store my pictures on the computer.

2. Select the 4th picture in the folder.

3. Explain the picture.

4. Tag 4 people to do the same.

5. No cheating (cropping, editing, etc.)


Here is my picture:

This picture was taken in December of 2008. It is a picture of Joann and me at Noccalula Falls.

I tag Joann.

Crazy College Week...

Well I concluded my first week of my new semester yesterday. I have been tired lately. It was a long week. I am glad I have a 4 day weekend. This semester is going to be more challenging for me. I hope I can do well. I am one of those people who has a hard time believing in themselves, but I believe in others....

Fragrance,Fleece,and Flannel

These three things are some of my favorite things. I enjoy lotion,body spray,bubble bath and shower gel from Bath and Body works. I make it an art to collect their products. I like to dump my over flown basket on a bed and look at all the stuff I have. My collection could last me well into my mid-late 20's -of course I am still adding to it. I love fleece pj's and shirts as well. They are so comfortable and keep me pretty warm. Finally, flannel. My grandma has flannel sheets on one of her beds at her house. I love sleeping on that bed, it is like sleeping on a cloud. My grandma bought me flannel sheets this Christmas. I love them and my pets enjoy them too.

Lazying around like Hunny.

I hope that everyone had a great new years. College will be starting in about a week so it is time to get back in to the groove of studying and all. I am excited to go back to school and see my friends. I have just been down right lazy this winter break sleeping alot -as usual. I have been watching classic movies as well this winter break. One of my fav actors is Cary Grant. I love buying $1 dvds. I have bought some good ones. I enjoy searching and finding movies from the 30's, 40's and 50's. Ya'll should check them out sometime.